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Tuesday, 23 June 2009

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    Barricades & Brickwalls
    By Kasey Chambers
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    God, I need a life

    I wanted to hang out with Beth and Nathan today, but I had to clean up the whole living room first. It took me until 5, and by that time, they were done with whatever they had been doing for the day.

    Being at home makes me angry. I hate being cooped up here for too long, and it's been way too long. Also, my parents are le dumb when it comes to simple conversations and general politeness, and my sister is a spoiled brat half the time, so that makes things even worse.

    When I read the posts on Textsfromlastnight, they make me laugh HELLA hard about the stupid shit people do, but they also reveal the thick layer of blander-than-vanilla nothingness that is my life. I realize that my life has never been as interesting as the people on there, nor will it ever be if I insist on keeping the responsible "good girl" reputation that I've had for my whole existence.

    Maybe I need a boyfriend. Maybe I just need to get laid. I don't know, but my teenage angsty hormones are kicking in pretty strongly right now. I drove for about an hour at 10pm just to make myself less unhappy. It worked, and I kinda felt interesting for a while, but I would have been in a better mood if I had seen a friend or two today.

    I hereby promise myself I will go places tomorrow.

          

Thursday, 28 May 2009

  • Summing up my first year at college.

    I’m leaving out the boring and mundane stuff.

    During my first year of college, I…

    Moved into the dorms a week early for rehearsals. Got to explore the downtown area in my spare time.
    Marched in a college band.
    Got over “oh-no-I-have-to-see-you-daily-again” awkwardness with my ex-boyfriend of two years.
    Watched "300" with the alto and tenor sections at Sam B's house. That's when I first started noticing Chris. We sat next to each other and I closed my eyes for most of the movie. xD
    Drove to Twin Peaks in SF over Labor Day weekend with Liz. On the way back, I got a ticket for going the wrong way down a one-way street. Epic fail.
    Made new friends with a rude, pot and cigarette smoking tomboy.
    Wanted to make more and better friends that didn’t make me look like such a bad person.
    Liked a skinny tall boy with scruffy face-stubble.
    Stopped going to Statistics, because everything the proffessor said went over my head, and I hadn’t learned what I needed to know before taking that class.
    Went to Blush with Beth and Nathan and saw Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist.
    Rearranged the dorm room with Denise and Nina.
    Dressed up as a flirty Pebbles Flintstone, and went to a college Halloween party with alcohol. I hung out with Fred and Wilma (we planned our costumes out separately, and they just happened to match.)
    Seriously thought about smoking hookah.
    Fell asleep with the Burger King on my shoulder, but when I woke up, he was passed out in the bathroom.
    Found Ailea and Igor cuddling on a couch. (That relationship lasted for two weeks until he confessed to her that he liked someone else.)
    Ate breakfast at Denny’s in full costume, made children there frightened and confused.
    Added hella friends on Facebook, including one that wasn’t at the party. T.J. got in an accident on his way there and broke a rib.
    Talked to T.J. online, and he sounded nice. I agreed to meet him in person, then immediately regretted it. NOT a fun conversation (details are in another blog.)
    Helped elect President Barack Obama.
    Was depressed and severely angry after hearing about the passage of Prop. 8.
    Went to Reno, NV for a band trip and partied.
    Was play-slapped by Ailea, and I slapped her back. That was when our friendship kicked off. (I only seem tame, but I can be ballsy right back at you if I feel like it.)
    Answered T.J.’s blunt question that he had asked a long time ago, but I had avoided. “No, I don’t personally think you’re attractive, but someone else out there does.” He left me alone after that.
    Decided to take out my belly ring, for fear of it being ripped out.
    Visited my high school marching band at two of their competitions.
    Got a cute haircut.
    Tried naming our new kitty names like Gustav or Chairman Meow Zedong. Waffles works too, I guess...
    Got through the Twilight frenzy without watching or reading it.
    Was asked by Mr. M to play in the MHWS (but he didn’t tell me beforehand that I’d be like, the whole flute section.)
    Caught the flu and had to perform at a MHWS concert while sick (and my solo in Jingle Bells Forever sounded like teh suck.)
    Had an excellent Winter Break. Liz and I drove around the bay, but got a phone call from Igor asking to hang out. I didn’t technically promise him that we would, but he kind of pushed us into spending time with him that day.
    I celebrated New Years Eve with my parents. They gave me champagne, but it tasted like sour lighter fluid, so I tried watering it down with sparkling apple cider. As it turns out, a couple sips of that stuff and just the idea of getting drunk makes me silly.
    Was told by Igor that he liked me. Later discovered that he’s liked me for a LONG time, and that I was the reason why he and Ailea didn’t work out.
    Went home for Meredith’s birthday party. It was like a rave in my house. Dark rooms, strobe lights, glow bracelets, and techno music. The only thing missing was the E. (I got to hang out and talk with the girls after. They’re pretty cool. Meredith’s friend Selena said she’d go lesbian for me.)
    Started to actually post things on my Xanga account.
    Had to demonstrate something for my public speaking class, so I decided to learn how to make a stuffed animal. Made a creepy-lookin’ stuffed bear named Mr. Frankenbear.
    Rushed and became a candidate for Kappa Kappa Psi. Sam, Ailea and I hung out a lot more and became known as “The Delta Class” or just “The Deltas.”
    Had a discussion with the Delts about losing our virginities. I haven't lost mine yet, so I'm the innocent one. And I got to laugh at them when they tried figuring out who lost theirs first. xD
    Made a stuffed kitty for my Big, Jenn, for her birthday present.
    Went to Jenn’s birthday party at the beach. At the diner, I sneakily stole a bite of Ailea’s lemon merengue pie and paid for it in bruises.
    Went to the Kappa Kappa Psi/Tau Beta Sigma Western District Convention in San Luis Obispo. Sold Rockstars. Split one with Ailea, went crazy.
    I visited Sam’s best friend in Cal Poly on the way back. That’s a big, hilly campus. I couldn’t go to school there.
    Had my yearly Spring-time meltdown. Classes were not going well, drama was stirring, classes were sucking, I was getting really really sick, and a class was dropped. I hate being a closet basket case. It always surprises people when I breakdown and cry like that. I apologize for not being good at handling things like my life.
    Listened to Ailea talk daily about her FWB, Shane. He is now her boyfriend.
    Got involved in drama with Sam (and Ailea) and Jenn. I. Did. Not. Like.
    Was happy when everything healed over with Jenn and the other two Deltas.
    Played Truth or Dare while housesitting with Ailea. I drank soy sauce, teriyaki sauce, honey, and orange juice mixed together. Sam got thigh-deep in the cold pool at 10pm. Ailea stuck her bra in the freezer then put it back on after 5 minutes, and she also ran up and down her staircase while singing “The Final Countdown” by Europe while we recorded her. Once Sarah came over, we dared her to jump all the way in the cold pool, and she DID it like a true badass.
    Was startled by the sudden addition of a couch from the 7th floor in our dorm room.
    Got initiated into KKPsi! My nickname given to me is “PIXee STIX” (I’ll add an explanation at the end of this post.)
    Went to Kyle Fanene's surprise party. Squirmed around with Rafalaf, Tawnya, Clover, and Lara on Nabonne's bed with the lights out. Motor-boated Tawnya. Got an angry call from Shawnda, my lesbian-lover (long-running inside joke) and explained the situation to her and healed things.





    Movies I watched during this school year:
    300
    Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist*
    Marley and Me*
    Slumdog Millionaire*
    Yes Man*
    Talladega Nights
    Juno
    Sunshine Cleaning*
    Revenge of the Nerds


    *saw in the theaters.



    And here is my nickname, if you're really interested.

                   
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               k    i    w      y           p    supercalifragilistice
         P    I    X   ee     S    T    I    X
         i     t    y     t       o    e    c    pialidocious
       _e_  t                         n    c
         B   i                         o    o
     f l u t e                         r     l
         b    s                        s     o
         b                              a
         l                               x
         e                              o
         s                              p
                                         h
                                     R o c k s t a r
                                         n
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    “Pie” because I was gusty and stole a bite of Ailea’s precious lemon merengue pie that nobody else was allowed to eat.
    “Kitties” because Jenn and I both loooove kitties.
    “Flute” because that is what I play.
    “Bubbles” because that’s the Powerpuff Girl that I am most like. Sam and Ailea are Blossom and Buttercup, respectively.
    “Trixy” because that’s what I had to be in order to swipe a piece of Ailea’s pie. Trick-sy. Get it?
    “Sweet” is in Jenn’s nickname just like this. Hers is ICee, so my future little will have to have some kind of sugary nickname with two EE's too.
    “Hokay, so” is in there because that’s how I always start off my stories. It comes from the End Of Ze World flash animation. If you haven’t seen it, you should. It’s an important part of the internets. My best friend and I spent a whole summer talking like the narrator in the video, and it’s stuck with us.
    “Hazing” is in my nickname because in the very first test we took as part of the education process, there was an example, and we had to decide whether or not it was hazing. The situation was: A few brothers come by your dorm room and blindfold you, take you to a car, and drive you to the south end of campus where you will do a scavenger hunt. Is this hazing, Yes or No? I said no, because it actually sounded like fun, and it wouldn’t have made me uncomfortable. Now everyone teases that NOTHING is considered hazing to me (which is untrue.)
    “Tenor saxophone” is what I play.
    “Rockstar” because at convention, Ailea and I shared a Rockstar energy drink and went insane with giggles.
    “Piccolo” is what I play.
    “Supercalifrailisticexpialidocious” is only in there because Jenn asked me what my favorite word with the letter X in it was. I started naming off words, and she just went with that one. Hahaha

    There are two X’s in my nickname, because I told the brothers the story of how and why I can recite the Greek alphabet in under 10 seconds. The bedtime stories my dad would tell me were all about his college days and the fun times he had being in Kappa Sigma (which is one of the largest fraternities nationwide.) He mentioned that one of the things he had to do in order to get into the fraternity was to be able to recite the Greek alphabet in 10 seconds or less. One day, when I was 9 years old and bored out of my mind, I got out a dictionary and memorized the Greek alphabet to the point where I could recite it in 8 seconds.

    I was always the type of girl who wanted to be a Boy Scout, and fraternities sounded like a helluva lot more fun than prissy sororities did, so I decided I wanted to be in a fraternity when I went to college, even though I was a girl.

    Luckily, Kappa Kappa Psi is co-ed, so I got to join. The two X’s in my fraternity nickname represent the two X chromosomes that make me a female.

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    I have a feeling this list will continue to grow as I remember random tidbits from this year. All in all, my freshman year at San Jose was pretty fun. Not as fun or as crazy as the typical Hollywood college year, but I'm satisfied.

Tuesday, 05 May 2009

  • My first blog in months, to make everybody happy.

    :D
    SO much has happened since my last post, and I haven't really had a spare moment where I felt confident enough to write everything down in one sitting without being called somewhere to hang out. Sorry for not being able to blog sooner! I'll just sum up what's been going on, and add details later once summer starts and I have free time.


    -Kerry and Leila were engaged on Facebook. It was an April Fools' joke, but it was a good one.

    -Western District Convention in San Luis Obispo.*

    -FALL OUT BOY CONCERT with Hey Monday, Cobra Starship, Metro Station and All Time Low!! I took Meredith, her friend Sydney, and my roommate Denise (this is how I paid her back for the Weezer concert last semester.) Meredith and Syd separated themselves from us uncool kids really quickly. Even before the first band went on, I felt quite dizzy and dehydrated with all those sweaty people and the lack of cold oxygen available. I didn't want to disappoint Denise and get farther away from the stage, but I also didn't want to pass out and make her tiny self responsible for dragging my body out of the cramped, jumping crowd. We were fascinated by Hey Monday. We laughed at Cobra Starship. We danced like fools during Shake It by Metro Station. We sat down and shared a large water and nachos during All Time Low. When it came time for Fall Out Boy, we made our way down and got really excited. There was a fight that ended with a guy's bloody nose. Sydney met up with us and explained that she needed her inhaler, which she didn't have. Meredith, I think, had the most fun and crowd surfed with her bright pink hair. After it was over, I decided I was sick and took it easy the next day.

    -Had a panic/stress/physical/emotional breakdown that had been stored up for weeks about classes and life in general WHILE I was horribly sick and in rainy weather. Emailed Mom to tell her about it and how I decided to not go to my english class anymore because I wasn't putting in any effort because I was depressed. She said it was okay and that I should spend a day or two deciding on what I want to do next year and later on. She thinks I have depression and pushed me to go see a counselor (which I haven't yet.) Dad called later to instruct me to take my vitamins and sleep more. I love my parents. They care for me even when I embarrass, disappoint and disgrace myself beyond comprehension. <33

    -Did a speech on The Beatles. I wasn't prepared enough, (which is another thing that I upset myself with,) but I was able to wing it when I practiced the speech. I knew enough information about them by 8th grade to present an ad-libbed, coherent presentation on the spot. During the actual speech however, I froze about 3-5 times and stuttered. The class stared at me like an idiot who knew nothing about The Beatles, other than they were famous at some point in time.

    -Drama with Jenn (my Big Brother) and Sam and Ailea. Jenn was rumored and perceived to be angry at Sam for trying to steal her bf, Eddie away. Sam was only friends with Eddie and nothing more. When she found out he and Jenn were dating, she stopped all forms of flirting, but stayed good friends with him. Listened to Sam and Ailea talk smack about Jenn behind her back made me uncomfortable, but I stuck with my friends, bringing up possible explanations.

    -FINALLY GOT INITIATED AS AN ACTIVE BROTHER OF KAPPA KAPPA PSI!! The Deltas wore our prom dresses to 3rd degree to surprise everyone and make it special. My nickname is PIXee STIX (explanation to come later), Sam is zHOugurl (pronounced Showgirl), and Ailea is DuBPloon(y) (with a silent P and Y, and because her Big is PiWrat.) Red Robin was after that. Jenn and I made a special trip back to the music building, because Sam and I forgot our pins in a practice/dressing room.

    -I have 5 book reviews and a speech that I have to do before this week ends. This is what I get for procrastinating and having a real social life this semester.


    * I will put up an entire blog about this event for my records with more information when I feel like it.


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    I will put actual pictures of initiation up later, but I'm quite tired at the moment, seeing as it is now 4:41 in the morning.


Wednesday, 08 April 2009

Tuesday, 31 March 2009

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    Poker Face
    By Lady GaGa
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    Spring Break 2009

    Friday:
    -Bought paddles and paint for KKPsi with the Deltas.
    -Made designs at Sam's dorm.
    -Went home
    -Arroyo WP/WG family night
    -Liz called to say she was taking a train home instead of flying up from Irvine


    Saturday:
    -Liz called at 4:30am asking if she could crash at my house. Not fully awake yet, I became the meanest friend alive and mumbled something like "No, I don't think so..." I'm still brutally kicking myself for that.
    -Went to Granada competition. Ended up driving extra but necessary people that were not performing (Joe, Amelia, Rawnna and her friend)
    -Jay and Nabonne's surprise party. (<--- hahaha it's Mr. Nabonne's name!)
    -Sweet Tomatoes. Ate with Khyle, because he looked lonely.
    -Purple Hippo! <33
    -Mr. Keating scolds me for following procedure and making sure everyone else knows why I can't drive any other kids but the ones I took. I know how these competitions work, thankyouverymuch.
    -Jeanie said to me "You're like one of those clueless parents that try to help out, but just get in the way." I know she's kidding, but I love to tease. =]
    -Walked in my front door to find Liz on my computer. Hugs and exhausted laughter occurred quite rapidly.
    -I can get out of jury duty by dressing up as Princess Leia. "I don't think it's fair for me to be on a jury, because I can read thoughts." or "I can't serve on a jury because I'm actually a hologram." XD


    Sunday:
    -Went to church without Liz (she went to her dad's church)
    -Mom and I dropped Meredith off at her friend's birthday party, just blocks away from Granada HS where I was the night before.
    -Shopped at JoAnn fabrics for crafty stuff.
    -On the way back from picking up Liz, I turned my head to look at a slow truck that looked like Mater from Cars, and I drove up on the curb. FAIL.
    -Began making a white stuffed kitty cat for Jenn's present.


    Monday:
    -I finished Jenn's kitty, but didn't put eyes on it.
    -Liz and I went to Quizno's and ate at the Marina whilst looking out at the bay.
    -Passive-aggressive ice cream trucks.
    -Ben called and wanted to hang out. We said we'd meet at Kennedy Park.
    -Someone decided it would be wise for Jessica to drive everyone to Berkeley. I asked Liz the Navigator which exit to take, and we ended up being forced to pay $4 to cross the Bay Bridge, only to immediately turn around.
    -Drove around Yerba Buena Island to a naval base, did a U-turn, found ourselves at an entrance to the superfastpaced highway again. I scared the crap out of my passengers by entering the highway when they didn't think I could. My car has quite a lot of pick-up! :D (I want to see how fast it takes to go from 0 to 60...)
    -Said hi to Liz's mom and dance troup at Ashkenaz. Ben got food at Chipotle. Should we go see a movie?
    -Liz lost her debit card. We searched the car, then thought it might be in the Quizno's parking lot. Called Mom and asked if she could find it. It ended up being in the Quizno's bag that we threw out after we got home. (of course..)
    -Watched The Emporer's New Groove at Liz's house. Dropped everyone off at home.
    -Stopped at the 76 station to wash my windshields. Ciera pulled up to the pump diagonally from me, and I did not acknowledge her presence.


    Tuesday:
    -Drove to Sunset Beach (past Santa Cruz) for my Big's birthday party. Picked up Ailea on the way.
    -I cannot fly kites.
    -Ultimate Frisbee! First team to get 10 points wins! *30 minutes pass* ...So, here's a new rule: First team to get 1 point wins. *30 more minutes pass* ...Okay, we're too tired to play anymore.
    -Ailea pushed me all the way in the frigid ocean, and I walked away with a bleeding leg. No more swimming for fear of sharks.
    -While leaning over to bury my feet in the sand, the most cliché beach mishap occurs (aside from the whole Coppertone girl and puppy scene.) The clasp to my swimsuit top breaks in the back. Luckily, I brought two extras!
    -Santa Cruz Diner. Ailea mooched half of my omelette even after I asked her to stop. I snuck a piece of her key lime pie to get even, and she brutally murdered my fingers and side. We didn't speak a word to each other the whole way to Jenn's house.
    -The Princess Bride!
    -That was my first time driving on Highway 17.


    Wednesday:
    -I went to have lunch with Mom at work. We went to Zorba's.
    -Made a fishie-to-sushi reversable thing.
    -Lost night! *SPOILER ALERT* Sayid shoots young Ben??


    Thursday:
    -Called in for more information on my jury summons. The recording said "Thank you for your time. Your service has been completed for a full year." YAY! I didn't have to do anything!
    -Liz and I met her friend's friend at BART, and we went to Berkeley. It was kinda awkward hanging out with someone you had just met, and the mutual friend you had had only met her once online. She was pretty cool though. She has Tourrette's, so throughout the day, she would either gasp suddenly or make strange meowing sounds. It was weird at first, but I got past it quickly.
    -Slept over at Liz's house.


    Friday:
    -Woke up with two cats on the bed, and a dog trying to climb up with us, too.
    -Broken phone kept saying "Car Kit" on the main display. Also won't send or receive calls.
    -Tasty pancake biscuits.
    -While waiting for Liz to get ready, I start singing "I know an old lady who swallowed a fly." It turned into something quite ridiculous from there.
    -Went to Baba's house to say hello and goodbye. When I hugged Baba's sister, she commented on my "strong and sturdy body." Old people are funny. She also referred to me as "Lizzie's girlfriend." That is incorrect, but I'm almost always with her when she comes over... so I can see why she'd think that.
    -Baba's tacos are amazing.
    -Liz's pegged leg kept hitting the table. xD
    -Mom came home from work sick.


    Saturday:
    -Foothill competition. Worst day to wear a mini skirt. Thank you, Liz, for letting me borrow your boxers!!
    -Ultimate frisbee without shoes. Better than trying to run in flip-flops.
    -Fall asleep on couch watching SNL. Wake up at 5:54am and decide to sleep in my own bed for a couple more hours.
    -The door to my room was completely shut. I walked in to find my mom sleeping on my bed. She woke up suddenly, mumbled something, and went into her own room. I found out the next morning that the cats were pestering her in her sleep, so she went into my room to hide from them. o.O


    Sunday:
    -Woke up sick.
    -Church was quite interesting. Katie wasn't there to conduct the sermon, so things were quite different. The chairs made a huge circle in the middle of the room, and there was circle dancing. It was the first time Liz and I had sat in the sanctuary together in a long time. We behaved like small children again, and it was awesome.
    -A microphone was passed around the group, and we all got to say what we liked the most about our church. I said I appreciated the people who helped raise me since I started going there with my mom 10 years ago. Most everyone said "Awww" xD
    -Ben, Andrew, Liz, Meredith and I went to get burritos at a taqueria.
    -Went to Baba's house to say goodbye. Professional golf was playing on TV. I kept laughing whenever these "professionals" would miss. Tiger Wood's first name is TIGER! How killer is that??
    -Then we watched Talladega Nights at my house until the last minute before we had to get back to our respective colleges.
    -I had literally 10 minutes to pack, and all I had done in terms of laundry was my comforter, which is what I was most concerned about.
    -When my dad drives, he turns his head to the side constantly like a gopher or a meerkat.
    -Dropped Liz off at the San Jose Airport. I have to go see her play at the end of May.
    -Ate dinner with Dad, Sam and Ailea. They have yet to meet Mom.
    -Studying for Session 2 test in Ailea's building. I was dying of sickness and exhaustion.
    -Collapsed.

    This week was epic. I want more of them.

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